I'm a Jesus Freak

Yes I can confess I'm a Jesus freak since 1973

Mijn zus Rita zat op het gymnasium op voormalige locatie Rolduc te Kerkrade. Op dit grote complex was ook een prachtige bioscoop aanwezig. Yes en ik mocht af en toe mee met mijn grote zus. De eerste bioscoopfilms die ik bezocht rond mijn 11de levensjaar op vrijdagavonden waren Louis de Funes in Sant Tropez en Jesus Christ Superstar.

En wat maakte Jesus Christ Superstar een indruk op Rita en mij. We kochten meteen de film dubbel LP bij de V&D en we konden de nummers meezingen. En ieder jaar rond Pasen was het showtime met het meebrullen van alle songs. Heerlijk wat hebben we samen hiervan genoten.

Ook na het plotselinge overlijden van mijn zus (1977) bleef ik trouw aan Jesus Christ Superstar en was Gethsemane een van mijn meest troostende nummers om de dood van Rita deels te verwerken. Ik zong het uit met tranen in mijn ogen, brullend van verdriet en troostend tegelijk; alsof ik gekruisigd werd……. in the name of

“God, thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me
Kill me
Take me, now!
Before I change my mind “

In de jaren 80 zat ik in Jongerenkoor Viresco en was ik blij dat “The Last Supper” anoniem door de muziekcommissie werd gekozen en zongen we als de apostelen dit nummer en als dirigent van mijn eigen jeugdkoor Carillion zongen we rond 1990 Hosanna. En dan met vrienden de musicals bezoeken van Koninklijk Ballet van Vlaanderen tot buitenlandse producties en dan in het sterfjaar van mijn vader regiseerde jeugdvriend Paul Eenens Jesus Christ Superstar en gaf er zijn eigen touch aan in de tijdsgeest van toen. Wat heb ik gehuild en genoten in Amsterdam, Nijmegen, Kerkrade, Maastricht en waar ik ook was. Paul nogmaals het is voor mij je meest emotionele productie met een speciale boodschap. En dan komt Ted Neeley “the Jesus” of the movie in 2015 met Italiaanse cast naar Den Haag en geniet ik weer, maar moet ik aan de zus van Paul , Jacqueline opbiechten dat Paul's versie me meer raakte.

Jesus freak; ja door de herinnering en ook Jesus als HUMAN wat ik over hem weet en denk, maar dan ben ik niet zo idolaat dat ik fan ben en 'm dan weer haat. JESUS FREAK NEE; hij reageerde soms net zo bizar als ieder mens met al zijn fouten. Gelukkig maar daar hij volgens mij net zo HUMAN is als ieder ander mens

Zalig Pasen en wat mij betreft doorbreek de traditie met wisselende feest -en sterfdagen

Lyrics

Gethsemane (I Only Want to Say) Jsus Christ Superstar

Andrew Lloyd Webber

Jesus

I only want to say
If there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me
I have changed

I'm not as sure, as when we started
Then, I was inspired
Now, I'm sad and tired
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations
Tried for three years, seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man?

But if I die
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me,
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree
I'd want to know, I'd want to know, my God
I'd want to know, I'd want to know, my God
Want to see, I'd want to see, my God
Want to see, I'd want to see, my God

Why I should die
Would I be more noticed than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have…

Why I should die
Would I be more noticed than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord
Have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see, my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see, my Lord
If I die what will be my reward?
If I die what will be my reward?
Have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord
I'd have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord

Why should I die? Oh why should I die?
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die
You're far to keen and where and how, but not so hot on why

Alright, I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how I die!
Then I was inspired
Now, I'm sad and tired
After all, I've tried for three years, seems like ninety
Why then am I scared to finish what I started
What you started, I didn't start it

God, thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me
Kill me
Take me, now!
Before I change my mind

Songwriters: Andrew Lloyd Webber / Tim Rice

Songteksten voor Gethsemane (I Only Want to Say) © Universal Music Publishing Group

In 1995 werd in de "grungetijd” de song Jesus Freak van DC Talk zelfs een hit all around the world ondanks de achtergrond van de band. Het nieuwe KINK (radio) draait het nummer ook wee anno 2019.

Lyrics

Jesus Freak door DC talks

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus Freak?
What will people do
When they find that's it's true?

Separated, I cut myself clean
From a past that comes back in my darkest of dreams
Been apprehended by a spiritual force
And a grace that replaced all the me I've divorced

I saw a man with tat on his big fat belly
It wiggled around like marmalade jelly
It took me a while to catch what it said
'Cause I had to match the rhythm
Of his belly with my head
"Jesus Saves" is what it raved in a typical tattoo green
He stood on a box in the middle of the city
And claimed he had a dream

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth

Kamikaze, my death is gain
I've been marked by my maker
A peculiar display
The high and lofty, they see me as weak
'Cause I won't live and die for the power they seek

There was a man from the desert with naps in his head
The sand that he walked was also his bed
The words that he spoke made the people assume
There wasn't too much left in the upper room
With skins on his back and hair on his face
They thought he was strange by the locusts he ate
The Pharisees tripped when they heard him speak
Until the king took the head of this Jesus freak

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find out that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth

No I ain't into hiding

People say I'm strange, does it make me a stranger
That my best friend was born in a manger
People say I'm strange, does it make me a stranger
That my best friend was born in a manger

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth

What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth

What will people think
What will people think
What will people do
What will people do
I don't really care
What else can I say
There ain't no disguising the truth
Jesus is the way

Songwriters: Mark Heimermann / Toby Mckeehan

Songteksten voor Jesus Freak © Fun Attic Music, LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group